adoration, love, and inevitability.

you have a smile that makes the word weak,

it never fails to bring me to my knees.

and its true, love, that day by day,

youve done nothing less than take my breath away.

and its because of you that my smile is real,

and for once i have no doubt in what i feel,

its been so long since i trusted someone so fast,

ill do whatever it takes to make this last.

because you put the stars back into my night sky,

and in my dreams with im flying so high,

past the clouds, headfirst into eternity,

relishing the euphoria of your love for me,

you bring out the sun when its nothing but rain,

something that no one can do the same,

youve been nothing but magic from the very start,

its amazing all this love youve put in my heart

hello there love, i just needed to say,

that as i was thinking of you, on the cold winters day,

something which i always do,

yes, my thoughts are undeniably you.

i was greeted most abruptly by the moon

and a soft, sad song he began to croon,

and i asked him why he seemed so blue.

and he told me the reason, that reason was you!

well you can believe my surprise at this shocking fact

and hastily i began my act.

i questioned the moon on what crime you pursued

to make the magical rock so blue,

he replied to me with an impish grin

and said your crime was complete perfection.

he went on to say how your eyes outshined

all of his most radient stars combined

and i smiled to myself at the time

and said well, that boy is mine,

and you can wish with all your might

but ill hold on to that boys love so tight,

that even your magic can't steal him away from me,

because in my heart's where hes supposed to be.

and i sit here, my mind reeling with such revelation

that it leaves me breathless, vulnerable and kneeling.

my fingertips and heart numb of all feeling.

hollow, deeper than empty and yet full.

full of an epiphany that ive run away from for far too long.

and i sit, much too weak to stand but not enough to lay down and die,

and here i am watching, observing the corruption which we so shamefully call humanity,

a society in which reality is warped into something far more twisted than whats real,

like a nightmare, one that pulls you down so deep you choke,

unable to feel the suns warmth or even catch a glimpse of the nights stars.

this is it, this is your utter downfall, you.

you are the one responsible for your own demise

a thought so personal that theres a sickening calm to the suicide.

almost as if it were subconciously premeditated, and who knows, perhaps it was.

this is it, what the universe has been secretly washing into our slumbering minds,

what weve so long been trained for, a war on humanity, a war against ourselves.

the ultimate test to our own self control, and it is an inevitability that we will lose

because this is the fate in which we choose.

heartbroken.

my heart is aching, god, so slowly it's breaking,
i'm crushed and trapped and yours for the taking.
youre eyes decieve me, im hardly breathing,
and the words you say don't aid the healing.
my trust you shattered, my thoughts are scattered, my mind so battered,
by such a deception, its out of the question to go a minute without a tear.
i'm crushed down and silently bleeding,
and inside my ears i continue this screaming,
in betrayl, sorrow, rage and fear,
my heart's cracking so loud, everyone can hear.

and oh dear god, how did this happen,
take me out of this cage im trapped in,
humanity has lost all its compassion,
its obvious with all these corrupted actions.
i can't fathom a completely sane reaction,
all i want to do is take her face and bash it.

youve done this to me, broken me down,
left me crying so much the world lost all sound,
you can't even begin to make a comprehension,
of the pain i feel and the bulding tension,
it's like i'm walking down the row to a death sentance,
and what you're doing is looking for repention,
and you would think my heart would yearn for vengeance,
but i'm not something this world invented.

i don't think with a corrupted outlook, perspective,
i wear my heart on my sleeve where it's barely protected.
and this feeling just spreads through me like an infection,
draining me of my breath as you seek redemption.
there must have been some kind of misconception
for you to have followed out with such a deception.

and while the days pass, slowly i'll climb,
to breath again and take a step at a time,
because i refuse to let this world break me,
you can wear me down but you will never take me.

dark.

liar, liar
body on fire
the glass tastes bloody,
so chew it louder.

- - -

miss mary mack, mack, mack,
all dressed in black, black, black,
she has a knife, knife, knife,
stuck in her back, back, back,
she cannot breathe, breathe, breathe,
she cannot cry, cry, cry,
thats why she begs, begs, begs,
she begs to die, die, die.

MORE WRITING.

and when she screams my imagination runs wild ,

the innocence in her eyes is that of a childs

and the bloodlust that fills my eyes is expressed

through her screaming until it dies

and all that remains after this hellish demise

is a bloodless corpse and a note left aside,

life is but a bitter sweet procrastination

to your inevitable annihilation '

- - -

and as the moon embraced me with its beauty and lit the sky with its light,

and the stars scattered across the night sky like precious jewels,

spread among its black canvas like an admonishing smile,

i was filled with the realization of there still being magic

in this world full of corruption and brutality

and that despite the cruelties of the society in which we so shamefully live in today,

there will always be magic and miracles among us in life's most beautiful and simple of things

- - -

a girl like this comes only once in a blue moon,
that smile that brightens up the world, and transfixes a room,
however, her only problems this,
she wears her heart on her sleeve and fresh cuts on her wrist.

- - -

take my soul and let it sleep,
let it sleep in peace and harmony.
it's a request you've never fulfilled,
and i'm begging you now with my tears,
can i convey to you the corruption i've seen,
can i tolerate this insanity a moment longer.

it's a simple answer, no.

take me away and cradle me,
embrace me with a love i've not experienced,
show me a friendship that has not fallen,
one that is whole, and not shattered.
drown me in a love that has not been stabbed,
with jagged edges of jealousy or hate coming forth from its depths.
drown me in something more than sorrow.
drown me in happiness.

open my eyes to a newer world, one where my hand is never empty.
lead me down a path that turns its eyes away from the pain.
enlighten me, surround me, suffocate me, kill me.
because it's what you've done before.
filling my heads with foolish ideals and foley.
the only way out being a quiet, and endless sleep.

just take me away, take me away from here, please.
dear you, sincerely me.

- - -

id like to tell the world a little secret,
when i give you my heart i expect you to keep it,
as in keep it safe, sound, and away from pain,
and never treat it as a game.
i expect you to love me and hold me tight
and steer us away from petty fights,
i expect a love that could steal my breath
and drain me of passion 'till there's nothing left.
your eyes give me butterflies so strong they bring me to my knees,
and i hear the birds singing perched in the trees,
and so many of these stars blinded my eyes
when you told me how you hate to see me cry.
the moment i saw you i was hypnotized
and i miss you before weve even said goodbye.
i try so hard to make you see
how honest love is supposed to be,
but something tells me youre still guarding your heart
and i feel like it's going to push us apart.
its so hard for me to do anything but frown,
on these morbid days when you let me down,
because youre the boy who can make or break my days,
with something as simple as what you say.
its days like these that give my heart all these cracks,
because i feel like i'm reaching out only to be pushed back.
a sensitive heart that just cries to be loved,
coveted and cherished and thought precious of,
i want to drown in your voice, touch and kiss,
but for you to see me, its like i have to insist,
maybe it's my mind playing a trick on me,
but i don't feel as important as i want to be.
yearning for consideration to my fragile soul,
i want you to love me and never let me go.